Showing posts with label Life Issues. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life Issues. Show all posts

Aug 27, 2024

IT NEVER RAINS BUT IT POURS




 


An old saying, at times so very true. It is certainly pouring on me at the moment. 

It seems never-ending, all-consuming, with elements of pain, physical and mental.

You wonder: what next? 

There is often more before the end is in sight. It appears as though there is a reluctance for anything to return to normal, whatever normal is…

Oh, normality is there; it is just difficult to tackle at first. If you can, as a first step, spread all your concerns onto the table and list them numerically.

Looking closely, as I am doing at the moment, place them in order of importance. Brutal honesty has to be used in some instances.

I am carefully pondering them to see if I can do anything to make a difference with each one. Put the ones you know you can change on a separate list.

I am hoping that by reducing the long list to a manageable size things will change. In fact, some have moved already.

Later on, I will look at the ones I had difficulty with, on the remaining list.

I am sure, by then, they will be ready in a very different light to move away, restoring me to the person I usually am.



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Aug 21, 2024

COLOUR MAKES NO DIFFERENCE




 


Skin no matter what colour just protects the functional elements in a tight hold. 

It is the heart and spirit which shares the goodness for others to find.



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May 16, 2024

LISTEN TO ME




 


Please listen to me!

Will you let me have my say?

How I have kept silent all this time with resentment swirling and turning thoughts in my mind.

Playing with sentences round and round in my head.

Shall I say it this way? Or would this other way be better?

Oh, why do I wrap it up? Why can’t I just say it? 

What is the matter with me? Why have I become such a wimp?

When first we wed, conversation flew, especially in bed. There was nothing we did not share; Laughs there were aplenty.

What is going wrong? Can we put it right?

Perhaps I need to say to him, “It is your turn. I will now listen to you.”



2024 © Penny Wobbly of WobblingPen

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May 11, 2024

SKIN DEEP




 


My skin is as thick as yours; protects me, it is true, from infection trying to burrow through. Yet mine has more protection than yours.

We speak the same language and live in the same town. However, it took a while for me to realise there was a dividing line.

Humans we are; we bleed and hurt inside and out.

What was the difference that kept me in low regard and you in an exalted place?

My qualifications, pardon my mentioning, are superior to yours; yet the barrier is still there. It was the colour of our skin of many shades that separated us from you.

Thankfully, there are many who accept us in friendship and family, with no hidden agenda.

In time, the mixing of our genes will make this a very special land. Nowhere in the world is there a community of perfection; that would be too much to expect of humankind.

All we ask is a level playing field and for you to see the beauty of our nature. We will blossom and show you the experience and knowledge we have to share.

Together, in friendship, we will help improve the lives of everyone, proving it has nothing to do with the colour of our skin, but plenty to do with the willingness of our hearts.



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Jan 5, 2024

WHEN




 


When will the sunshine come again, turning the sky blue?

When will the earth stop its writhing and start to calm?

When will the river’s tranquil return unveil beautiful picnic sites?

When will the moon be full again, revealing romantic nights?

Oh, when? How we yearn for the return of normality.

When will humanity stop its insanity, slashing trees for cash?

When will the land return to its productive green,

When trees, laden with fruit, attract life to the scene?

When rivers are restored, fish and animals start to play.

Oh, when? How we yearn for the return of normality.

When friendships are made with no fear.

When homes are there for as long as we plan.

When travel is easy, to expand understanding of other lands.

When cultural mixing knits a pattern we all understand.

Oh, when and how can we encourage the return to normality now?



2024 © Penny Wobbly of WobblingPen

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Nov 26, 2023

PONDERING




 


Sitting pondering a list of things I have to do. A list growing longer by the day. Consigned to urgent, can wait, can’t do.

Perusing them once more, knowing I do not have much time, I make an almost clinical decision, to attack the urgent and investigate the can’t do.

Clearing the urgent frees up space, so my mind can concentrate on what I can’t do. On closer inspection, they are not as difficult as they seem.

Slowly, my list grows shorter, as obstacles of time and exhaustion are soothed away. Some are placed comfortably into the pigeonhole and can wait, Removing that weight called guilt as I carry on through my day.

Later, with more pondering, and less stress, I tackle the can wait.



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Oct 12, 2023

CALL ME BY MY NAME




 


I am a woman.

Call me by my name I am free

I am a woman

With a name, you can now call me.

I am a woman 

Growing proud and tall.

I am a woman

My words are now valued as important.

I am a woman

With words to help other women.

Besides which I proudly stand,

As in our part of our world, we now have a name.



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Oct 6, 2023

A TEACHER I AM




 


The day I started as a newbie, with a class of active children looking up at me. 

The weight of responsibility, knowing this class is now mine. 

Will I be able to control them for most of the time? 

In college, it went smoothly almost every day, with a tutor to settle them down, if they decided to stray. 

Now it was just me, I will just have to see if these little darlings will abide by the rules. 

So I can be the best teacher I have always wanted to be. 



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Sep 10, 2023

WOMAN




 


Women have much to do, to facilitate change with a focus on love and courage.

There is always hope, change and advancement when mixed with committed joint effort.

The more we share, the more we know, the more strength we gain.



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Aug 16, 2023

HOLDING ON AND LETTING GO




 


Lying there waiting for sleep to claim and close most of my brain.

A part of my brain starts to move into my past it starts travelling.

At first, I fight then let go, allowing pictures of places past to unravel, I wallow in nostalgia and memories of a life well lived.

Trying to cling to thoughts of loved ones as they once were.

Slowly sleep creeps in again and my memories start to fade, I let go, knowing rest is needed for a day of decisions waiting to be made.



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Aug 15, 2023

LONGING FOR TIME TO CHANGE




 


LONGING FOR TIME TO CHANGE


You are the only person; who can change things, to do whatever you want to do.

Just remember, the life you have now, is much shorter than a blink of an eyelid. 

Do you really want to miss it?

Your changes may release someone else, to do what they really want to do.



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Jul 17, 2023

GLASSES




 


GLASSES


The days arrived that I've always dreaded.

My arms aren’t long enough to get my needle threaded. I have to screw up my eyes till they are horizontal slits, trying to make out the constantly shimmering little blips. I try to manoeuvre till I am in bright light, but I have now to admit I am losing my sight.

So it is off to the opticians and it's glasses for me, long-range and short, two pairs it will have to be, so that, I don't greet total strangers as though they belong to me. I might then be able to keep a comfortable distance between myself and the TV.

If any of this is familiar to you, it is time you went to see who you know. You'll be amazed at the difference it makes; just don't scream too loudly, when you first have a glimpse through glasses of the contours of your face or catch sight of the marks on the kitchen's clean white surface.



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Jul 3, 2023

IS IT FOR ME




 


When on holiday, 

Contemplating breakfast plate in hand.

Amongst a moving,

Milling crowd of mysterious serious men.

A phone rang out, shrieking intermittently,

With its distinctive attention-seeking call.


They stopped, as one,

Reaching for mobile phones hanging free,

To see whose call it could be.

As statuesque, they stood frozen phones to ear,

Waiting, intently listening ‘Is that call for me?’


Movement returned to all but one,

We knew then it was for him it had rung.

It really caught my sense of humour,

As they were all attending a conference for Interpol, 

A the secret gathering information bureau.



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Jun 24, 2023

SMALL FACE




 


SMALL FACE 


I am a small face looking out from the small place 

Where I was born. 

I search the wide horizons, wondering what is beyond. 

I want to be out there on an adventure, 

Feeling my way to a better place. 


Will I make it? 

Will I like it? 

Will they like me? 

Will I feel like a small fish swimming in an uncomfortable sea? 

Will I remain lonely as I try, perhaps too hard, to fit in? 

How long should I keep trying to blend in to be accepted? 


How I feel this confusion, this dissolution, my misplacement. 

How do I stop the pull on my heart strings, calling me home? 

This small face is now turning, with yearning, 

To the small place I come from. 

The question is: will I now be allowed to fit back in? 

Bringing new ideas to the small place I was born. 



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May 31, 2023

AN UNCONTROLLED JOURNEY




 


My young man and I had to make a routine hospital visit yesterday afternoon. Yet like most of my outings changed into anything but routine.

The weather turned it’s first winter’s wind up several knots to almost freezing as we headed out into it. I had decided to take my router walker, as the ground was too wet and dead leaves splattered to negotiate with walking sticks, it also gave me sitting opportunities when required.

Off we set and of course, we just saw the back of a bus disappearing around the corner. A real heart-sink moment as it was a ten-minute wait for the next one. It started to drizzle and we huddled together in the bus shelter to wait out of the wind.

Thankfully there must have been some disruption to the bus timetable, as one appeared in seven minutes. The bus curtseyed allowing me to conveniently roll my walker on. As it was empty we were able to choose seats nearest the disabled bay so we could brake my walker and I could hold onto it through the bars. We completed that part of the journey without incident. 

The next bus was quite a different challenge, as there was a metal sheet between my seat and the disabled parking space. We lined up my walker putting the brakes on, all was well till we turned the last tight right-hand corner into the hospital drive. To our dismay the walker broke free heading down the bus, willing laughing helpers grabbed it and brought it back.

The appointment went without incident and I avoided pressing the button on the mortuary floor, which I had succeeding doing once before. Once outside we had to wait for a bus. Oh, it was bitterly cold and windy. 

Eventually, the bus appeared, we let the other passengers on first, before confidentially placing my walker in the disabled bay. Again we were unable to keep a physical attachment to it.

Halfway through the journey it made another determined break for freedom, before being captured by my husband and squeezed into a gap at his seat and trapped there by his legs, so very uncomfortable.

I made a sweeping glance around the bus and caught sight of a gap big enough for a folded standing upright walker. Once the passengers nearest to the space left the bus, I suggested as we still had a way to go he might be more comfortable if we parked our escapologist there. A suggestion I was surprised he readily agreed to. It must have been uncomfortable sitting as he had been.

So he wheeled our collapsed walker into the narrow upright space, and we settled for a more relaxed journey. Bad mistake as after a bump over a kerb and a sharp turn on a roundabout, my walker somehow slipped under the bars and lay on it’s side ready to jam the doors when they were required to open at a bus stop.

My young man by this time had a great deal to say to the wheelchair none of which was nice. Other passengers came to his embarrassed rescue and both our thanks. 

He stood holding onto the walker in the disabled space, endangering himself, as the bus took off again on it’s wobbly ride. I said, “Please sit on it as with your weight and the brakes on it should not move.”

He was about to refuse, when the bus swung around another corner, almost sending him and the offending walker in the driver's direction.

Once more I said more firmly, “Sit on it sit on! Common sense prevailed. My embarrassed young man lowered himself onto my walker.

You might ask why I had not participated in this fiasco. I was seated against a widow who had a step to negotiate to be able to assist. I would have been an immediate return to the hospital casualty if I had tried. Instead, my focus was on being a helpful I hope observer.

All that is left to say is a big thank you to everyone on the number 2 bus service yesterday afternoon, for their assistance with my runaway walker.



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Jan 22, 2023

MY HOME, MY PRECIOUS HOME




 


MY HOME, MY PRECIOUS HOME


Oh my home, my precious home, filled with memories of love, quarrels, plans, laughter, music, singing and dancing, and celebrations of marriages and the birth of children.

How we have treasured you, from the moment we first found you as newlyweds,

Changing your interior as we could afford to, with a family expanding.

Now I am left huddled in a ruin, with you buried in the garden,

With our children scattered for safety in other lands.

Taking most of my heart with you all; even the birds have deserted us.

Only the dog and I remain cringing, giving courage and comfort to one another as bombs and missiles rain around us.

Today, we left together for essential food and water and our weekly meeting of other poor souls.

On our return: oh house! You were no longer standing, smashed to smithereens; the shock was total.

I cried and cried, wandering amongst the ruins, searching, with the dog howling and whining too in bewilderment.

Who could hate us this much and why? I have never been one to hate, yet I do now.

I hate the unseen manipulators of war who stay warm and clean,

Who send troops to roam the world, demolishing whole villages and cities, scattering and splitting the populations, in some cases forever,

Leaving wasteland and emptiness behind.

Oh house, my precious home, I never thought we would part this way. 

I hoped in the fullness of time and with age to just drift off beneath your roof.

Now I have to search and take what I can for the dog and me; not much, as I am too old to carry much.

We say goodbye to my love’s grave in the garden and walk away from you in despair, into the unknown,

The two of us, hoping to meet with kindness, friendship, family and somewhere to collectively call home.



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Nov 1, 2022

IS THERE A SPELL




 


Oh, how I wish there were a spell to shake me up and make me feel better.

Not that I am really ill just that nothing is going very, well no matter what I do.

So I ponder on and on making and changing plans to find a way through.

I sometimes think I have a gremlin aboard, bound and determined to stop much of what I try to do.

Meetings carefully arranged somehow find a way of falling through.

Zoom calls timed from abroad, have storm disruption, poor connection and have to be abandoned, they do.

Updates arrive at inappropriate times, scrambling well-made plans into total confusion

Making five-minute jobs, turn into hour-long disasters failing completion too.

Oh, how I wish for a spell to clear all the mischief a possible gremlin to trying to do.



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Oct 7, 2022

SHOCKED IN DISBELIEF




 


I clicked on an advert from a well-known fashionable shop. 

What a shock I got! Sandals flat and cushioned with a price that gave me a knock-

Who can buy these, they are nice looking, but oh my at a price tag of £1,010 a pop?

They are not a colour you could wear a lot, flashy though they are. They were not made to last for long as far as I could see.

Scuffs would soon show with wear and tear, repairs would cost an arm and a leg.

They must be mad as I run my fingers through my hair. For that price I could feed a whole family for a month it’s not fair.

If you are tempted, go to a cheaper area, you will find equally lovely sandals waiting there.

It might give you the thrill to have money available, for the appearance of some of those nasty little extra bills.



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Sep 1, 2022

SLOW CREEP




 


I am walking along this road at a slow creep. 

Which years ago I could have traversed at a fair speed. 

My bag is lowered every hundred yards for rest. 

Other arm is required for my trusty stick. 


So some sort of balance is sedately maintained. 

To prevent a knee or other part giving way. 

The more you walk the better it be, so they say. 

Till the temptation of a seat beckons you. 


Shun such comfort or on arising, 

Moans and groans will burst forth. 

In cries of pain, as joints start to creak. 

While struggling to be upstanding again. 

To perambulate homewards at a slow safe pace.


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Aug 22, 2022

SUMMER TIME IS FADING




 


Summer time is fading away, back to school is fast approaching. 

Gone the lounging on the back lawn with loads of sun protection screen on. 

Under an umbrella with sunglasses perched on my head ready for wear. 

I-pad in action a game in full play, I reach for a cool drink, to ease the tension away. 

Radio playing the latest hot tunes of the day, cause my feet to tap, body to sway. 

Later today mum has been making appointments for us to keep, purchasing new uniforms and shoes for our feet. 

Along with trips to the dentist, hairdresser for a short back and sides. 

To the bookshop for books we just have to have, for school requirements for course work, exercise books and new pens. 

I am allowed to choose some exciting new books, to swop and share with my friends. 

As the new term approaches there is a flurry of family visits, trying to fit them all in. 

As once term starts there will be little time to visit them. 

A last a short holiday weekend break, all we can afford to contemplate. 

Budgets are tighter than they have ever been, as our parents keep reminding us. 

Finally a big clean out of our personal space, to make room for all the new things we had to purchase. 

As we pack our school bag, ready for the final Summer-day that is slipping away and we stand waiting, for the arrival of the school bus, ready to take us to whatever’s there ahead of us. 



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